The moment when we initiate a special biological program in our psyche (because we realize a condition we desire does not exist), we feel isolated from source (“away from home”).

It is not an unconscious realization or perception that our existence is threatened (even though our physical existence in the present form may be).

It is also not a sense of loneliness or disconnection from other people or other living beings.

Existence, within the psyche, is a sense of meaning, order, and security of life, because the author or source of that life is handling everything. To a psyche without biological conflicts, one’s existence is of no concern; it is obvious, unquestionable, and eternally reliable.

One happily “lives in the hand of the Gods.”

We live in a time when it is a core cultural dogma that our existence is always at threat, unless we can belong, be in relationship, do the right things, and so on. This is why every modern, civilized person beyond early childhood tends to have several special biological programs active at any given time.

While existence (or rather, isolation from the source of our existence) is central to every Dirk Hamer syndrome (DHS) and every biological conflict is an attempt to change ourselves in order to secure that source of existence once again, it is possible to have an existence conflict purely, without any other aspect. 

This can take four nuanced forms:

• pure existential isolation (my God has forsaken me, my mother’s soul has left me)
• abandonment (I can no longer depend on an individual, group, or herd that I was depending on)
• isolation (a literal sense of not knowing direction and distance to security e.g. being locked in a dark empty space, being in a desert with no oasis in sight, floating rudderless on the sea, etc. It is an extremely common sensation when in hospital)
• refugee (all my normal environmental cues are missing)

This existence conflict is relayed, through the centre of the brainstem, to the kidney collecting tubules. With active kidney collecting tubule conflict, we reabsorb more water than we excrete and will even gain weight as a result.

This is a biological attempt to hold on to the source of our existence (the ocean) until the next wave finds us and carries us back “home” again to the source.